I feel so tired

I really am so tired of trying time and again and again and again. Failing time after time after time after time. Rather tired of everything that's happening around me. I felt like this before, and its coming back to me again. I don't want it to. Because this kind of feeling really sucks.

Everyone seems so happy and successful with it. But not me. I don't know why but time again I have failed in this aspect. Maybe I'm really not meant to be. But to so many people? Kind of tough to believe. But I guess I just have to accept that fact. To be honest, I feel really envious of them. All of them.

Each time I put so much hope in them, either I fail them, or they fail me. And we go separate ways once again. I could never understand what's the problem. Me, or them? Maybe I'm meant to be alone. Alone for the rest of my life.

Oh well, its a long and tiresome journey.
I want to escape from all of these.
I want to run away.
Away from all these endless worries.