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I'm having mixed emotions today.

Didn't do very well for the shooting competition.
Both the CI Teams didn't do very well at all.
Cross our fingers and pray hard that we can get into finals.
Not that I want a trophy desperately, but I still hope I can get one.

Met up with old classmates.
Secondary school times is still the best.
But somehow, the feeling is just a little tad bit weird tonight.
Not too sure why, but yeah, its just a little weird.

I don't like the feeling of jealousy either.
But I cannot help feeling that way when I talk to you.
Tell me how to stop that feeling please.

And I got really upset when someone made a comment.
A comment that made me looked like a fool.
A comment that made me lose my trust.
A comment that made me lost the hope.

I feel scared. Of the future.
I feel tired. Of what's happening in my life now.
I'm having a mix of emotions churning in my heart right now it makes me feel like throwing everything up.