Today, while I was in the midst of carrying out something, I suddenly felt that life is so difficult to carry on with. I don't know whether what I want in life, is really the things I want to have for sure. I'm unsure whether the direction that I'm heading towards is the best one suited for me, and the one that I really want.
The future is so vague to me at this moment. I really cannot forsee into my future. Sometimes, that makes me scared. I think too much really. And when I do, this kind of things happen. Are most teenagers my age facing the same problem as me? Or am I the only one worrying unduly about what my future will bring.
Its so tiring for me. I don't know how to carry on living the current life that I'm in right now. Yes, there may be fun moments with people and all. But how come I'm not satisfied? Try bringing my expectations of myself and others down? Easy to say, difficult to do. I can advise others, but never to myself. When others advise me, its usually "easier said than done". Hahaha. I'm so contradicting myself. What an irony.
Life~
On another note, I hate losing friends. Close ones especially. I really wish to have them all back, and we could be like what we were before. I want to treasure all of you so so so so much and keep all of you close close close to my heart.
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