A sudden Jolt

While I was thinking of some happenings going on in my life at this juncture, there was a sudden surge of emotions running through me. Sadness, anger and some form of hope and jealousy. I don't know what kind of mix is that but its just made me emotional. This is what I thought about....

Someone sent my whole family and I home in a car. And so I thought to myself how nice it would be if I was having my own car, the convenience of having one and all. Which made me think back slightly into the past when I made plans for myself to save up to buy a car in the near future after I achieve my full time career in the SPF. Then it came crashing down to rock bottom when I realised that's not quite possible because I am currently still serving the SAF, serving my liability to my country. I felt really upset, disappointed and useless.

I may be patriotic. But I am not too inclined into serving my nation by defending it with a rifle and hiding in the jungle or digging shell scrapes. I feel it more towards keeping peace within the communities and upholding the law and solving crimes. Well, people have different mindsets right. I had made many plans on what to do with the pay that I draw from the SPF as a full time job. Buy new things for myself and the house because some are not working well and my parents are being cost savvy and not wanting to spend unnecessarily. I want us to live comfortably. I think its time to pay back the gratitude my parents gave to me.

Just because of some stupid reason I cannot achieve what I want in life. Just because of that sutpid thing that made my dreams dashed. All hope is not lost yet. But I really wish for that day to come really soon. Please don't tell me things that BMT days will pass by really fast. It may after I complete it and look back,  but not when I'm suffering right in the heart of it.

Oh well. Change topic.

I think if I were to get a girlfriend. I would want it to be a relationship kept simple. I don't like complicated stuff. They make life too difficult and messy. I rather keep it simple and neat. Otherwise, if my forsight into the future is going to be true. I will remain a bachelor because I am unwanted and being left on the shelf. And when that happens, I shall buy a yacht, and live on the seas all the time. HAHAHAHA.

Happy 45th National Day to all Singaporeans!
Fly our flag high, high up in the sky!
You shall celebrate the nation's birthday, while I will return to protecting her.

PS: I have runner's knee!