Suck Thumb & Die

Some times, just leave your baggage behind, let your past go, then perhaps we'll be a happier person. I don't know why but I keep thinking of the times we spent together. I can even relate the movies that I watch to what happened between us. Its sad how things turn out, but nevermind, cos if that's what you really want, then I'll just have to accept it.

I'm going for a camp. To a place which brought me two different kind of feelings. One is when I really fear and have a phobia of. All the punishments, PT, activities (that im afraid of) and just the feeling of being out of my comfort zone. Another feeling is when I feel all excited to meet my friends, have all the fun stuff together, no restrictions, and be the one that dominates the events. But now, I'm going to meet my fears all over again.

I think people play a big part of whatever you do. The words they say can really pierce through my delicate heart. Their actions they do can really hurt whatever that is left of me. Hence, a big part of why I'm not enjoying the things that I do or are happening in my life now is because of the people. But I'm glad I do have some that call themselves my friends. And I'm proud of them.

Too bad, life is just the way it is.
Suck thumb and die.