Regrets

Have you ever encountered situations where you have to make a choice, but at the end of it, you regret making that choice? Or maybe you were so certain that the choice you made before was so right and at the end of it things didn't turn out so right you just had to feel regret for making such a choice?

There are many things that we do that requires us to make choices. Its really tough to choose between right or wrong some times. At times its just a thin line, a very grey area, and you don't know what to do when you face such situations.

I have made a fair share of wrong choices in life. I have many regrets. Sadly to say, I still think about them, and regret my decisions. Most of which are related to someone else. For I cannot tolerate myself hurting another person, especially a delicate heart. But at times, when things just pop out and irregardless of whether it is right or wrong, when you just got to do it, you just got to do it.

The pain and misery that I feel every time I think about a regret I've made in my life, is just so incomprehensible. Its as if my heart just sank into a bottomless pit of hollowness. Pain and sorrow just pokes at my heart as it sinks deeper. You want to feel better, you want to lift yourself up, but it just keeps falling. You feel as if your heart is crying, crying its own heart out. Sigh.

I make it a point. Never to feel regret in my life for whatever decisions I make. So far so good. But some times you just have no choice. And the past still torments me. Its like a permanent marker, it can never be erased off.

Time can never be rewind. So let's not even bother going or thinking about that. I just hope that the future will be regret-free. Or at least have me make decisions that I won't regret so badly. Oh well, this happens when you think too much again.