Its back again

The feeling of being lonely is back again.
Although I keep going out with many people.
But I still keep having that feeling.
The stupid, stupid feeling that's always recurring.

I know its dumb to be feeling that way as some of you might say.
Am I being too demanding and not appreciate what's happening?
Or is it because going out with people does not mean anything?
Why am I not satisfied with what I have?
Or because it was never there in the first place?

Sigh. I don't know. I really don't.



I'm sick again. I hate falling sick.
Why do I have such a weak immune system.
Isn't my outer world already battering the storm.
Why is my inner self fighting against me too.
This sucks, sucks, sucks!

And I just hope that you are there for me.