They must NOT fail me again

With regards to NPCC Annual Parade 2010:

I have absolute faith in the contingent that I'm assigned to. Although not officially marching in with them on the actual parade, I have been training them since the day their fate was decided to be in the contingent. There has been tremendous improvement from them since day 1 and I forsee that they will not let me down.

However, that being said, it takes two hands to clap. By me having total faith in them does not equate to them performing up to my expectations, or to the standards of other people (the spectators, other instructors, my superiors). I've been given chance after chance to make things right. I've been trying my best efforts to make it go right. To the best of my abilities, I still try to fight till the very end for the blossoming of this contingent. But training after training, they let me down.

Trust, respect, faith, and most other things has to be earned. They do NOT come easy. And they take much blood and sweat in order to achieve it. I do not know how much I have achieved till date, but I have taken feedbacks from the first annual parade I attended two years ago, and put them into practice this year. Perhaps the impact is still not as great. Or probably we should all just blame that the generation, the era, is changing from bad to worse.

I don't think I'm going to lay down like that and drown in my own sorrows. I think I can make a change. I believe I can make things right. I am given one more chance this coming training. I must make things right.

They must NOT fail me again.