De-everything you can think of

Hi there guys,

I'm back again to blog because this time I'm really feeling it again. I am not sure if I posted about this before (but I'm quite sure I did), about how demoralised I was when I first got my posting after graduating from the academy. I think I'm feeling it right now again.

Somehow or rather, I don't seem to find the motivation to work anymore. I don't see a sense of direction at where I am heading. Maybe it's because of the recent cases that I've been up against at work (and boy, its rather major, to me at least), or perhaps its just the stress at how my supervisor has been directing alot of pressure at me because I recently just handled on a new jobscope.

Each day, I just drag myself to work and maybe, perhaps, could be... my other team mates are my only motivation I would like to see myself there. Other than that, I still dream about leaving that God-forsaken place to be on the ground, seeing where all the action are. Today, I spoke to a former ground personnel, and she too miss that kind of experience. I really want to see myself in that position, seeing all the first hand action and all.

I know, every time I come back onto this platform is when I have something bad to rant about. But this is really a place where I can put all my thoughts into and just let it out. Well, there isn't someone in my life right now whom I could really relate all these thoughts to anymore. Best friend just got attached to a new girl, so I have to be more understanding that more of his time goes to her. I must say, I am actually quite jealous and envious of him but yet at the same time happy for him. We used to complain day in and day out non stop about being single and looking at those beautiful ladies walking along the street and say "why are we still single". But just as he wasn't finding one, he got it.

I wonder, when is it my turn. Hahahaha.

Happy New Year to one and all! :D